Jennifer Carvalho, Backlot (medium long), oil on canvas, 2013

We finally got a bit of relief from the extreme heat spells. In its place? A tornado. Huge fucking trees are split in half all over the place. I feel like I’m walking in a thesis/heat induced daze that has been going on for so long my feet hardly touch the ground. JUST checked in here to find I’d miss all sorts of stuff – new jobs galore, did the boy take MEC?; some serious sadness; dreams of closeness; worries of future. When I try to face these things in my own life a wave of emotion threatens to knock me over, I duck for cover, I dodge: playing video games on my phone – going for walks – getting drunk or high – losing myself in a tangle of words and artwork that I no longer feel came from me. Like in the moment before waking up from a long sleep and your whole body tries to cling to the weight of doziness but time pushes you forward with insistence: reality is coming, I see it on the horizon. I have one month left. In the meantime I’m listening to this SUMMER JAM and its slow dreamy remixes of old favorites sound good.


2 responses

  1. BTW: the painting is by my friend Jen, who is up for the big RBC painting prize this year. My fingers are crossed for her. Check out her website here:

    July 21, 2013 at 13:45

    • Zorro

      I like her work. Would love to see some of the other stuff your classmates have produced, to get a feel for it.

      July 23, 2013 at 13:24

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